My parents divorced about five years after my first communion and ushered in a very confusing period in my life. As children of divorce, my siblings and I had to adjust to step-parents and step-siblings. Since “home” was no longer our family home, we had to move and lost the community we’d lived in for 10 years. Within two years, the four of us kids were split apart, too, two living with my mom and two living with my dad. This caused an even greater sense of loss for me. We were caught in the middle of their war.
When the Catholic Church no longer welcomed my mom, I became convinced that some sins are not forgiven by God. Sadly, the evil one used this and snatched away the seeds of faith that been sown earlier in my life. As I conformed more and more to the ways of the world, I became involved in things that took me further and further away from God, down paths that lead to destructive behavior and despair. I prayed sometimes, but I didn’t have any real conviction that God heard me.
I know now that He was pursuing me all along! It was His Holy Spirit that shouted at me over my worldly ways. I was awakened when I experienced something that could only have come from God…(Link to Pursued & Awakened )